Dear Saint, I can't sleep...

Random message to Saint around 03:30am April 19th 2011

I've been so agitated and frustrated at/with work for faaaaar too long. And the last week has gotten me permanently angry and fucking swearing

Now I see why employees gun down people in d office. Lol

I think I'm gonna quit

Am I unrealistic for wishing I had a great and caring man in my life that would bring calmness and serenity into my life after a daily dose of bullshit at work???
Or do such expectations and dreams of one with such serene qualities only exist in my fantasy deluded world?

Lol!!  I kid myself. What I need is a bloody new job and be surrounded by people and co-workers that will not 'give me' Insomnia or make my heart pound.

My heart pounds for 3 reasons- fear (of d unknown), anxiety, and love. As we all know it is not d later. Though I wish it were.

As for the other possible causes of my heart pounding- as at now I only have God to bring serenity into my life